Often feeling ashamed of every single thing about myself. It's not healthy, but it's my fault, isn't it? Only I am responsible for the lack of change in my life.

I've been feeling pretty anxious about internet access lately. Half the time I don't even have a stable internet or mobile connection, so one of the few things I can still do while I'm connected is download music to listen to offline later.

I know piracy is a controversial topic, but I'm getting mad when someone tells me I'm doing a bad thing when pirating music. For example, I wanted to buy some albums on bandcamp, but the paymemt methods on the service simply isn't available for me. If there's no legal way for me to purchase the content from where I live, it's hard for me to understand why the responsibility falls entirely on the user - me.

Whenever I bring this up online, especially on Reddit, people tend to react pretty harshly. Maybe I just haven't explained my perspective very well.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm the only one who noticed how bloated, repulsive, and useless modern GUI is.

Don't get me wrong, I love what Nothing Phones introduce, their flickering tweaks and all. I like how Google experements with shapes, and Apple tryna bring something from the past back into out lives. But God forbids, how ugly has that turned out to be?..

I absolutely hate the modern GUI. I find it very hard to use my phone or laptop. I discovered unixporn with the whole customization thing, and it truly kept my macbook experience very pleasing to me.